Almost 7 months into the year, I have completed or even worked on any of my new resolutions- and to be honest, I feel totally shit about it. In my head 2019 was the year I’d become this confident, driven woman who’d lost a tone of weight and was happy. And as I write this post, I’ve put on a lot of weight, I’m in debt and I have absolutely no drive what so ever.
Now, this doesn’t mean I’m not happy, in fact the only upside to 2019. My mental health and anxiety have been arguably the best it’s been since I was a spotty teen rocking rock ports and blasting out Pretty Green Eyes, through my Sony Ericsson- ahh the days.
Armed with an army of notebooks, I hope to re-write my January Resolutions-and find something I’m actually motivated to achieve.
Around this time last year, I became pescatarian, so far, I’ve enjoyed the majority of it. Usually I stick to vegetarian meals and only eat fish when I’m feeling run down and need a little more protein in my diet. At the start I had hopes of eating super healthy meals all day every day, but it didn’t work that way. Right now, I find myself reaching for my vegetarian alternatives and chips- literally potatoes are my best mate.
Since Christmas, I’ve put on quite a lot of weight and truthfully, I think that’s one of the major reasons I feel so awful about myself. After a good cry and a planning session with the mother, I’ve got my trusty meal plan and I hope, that eating healthier will decrease me waistline and improve my mindset*she said hopefully*.
Okay, okay, I know I’ve been lacking a bit when it comes to content. My Instagram could be described as waste land and my blog has been on the back burner for what seems to be forever.
Recently, I’ve been really missing blogging, even beauty blogposts (which probably take the most effort), I’ve found SO enjoyable to write. It’s safe to say that I’ve found my blogging stride again- just maybe without the schedule?
Now, not to be that blogger(spoiler* I’m going to be), but I have been working on a little something, something when I comes to my little blog. It’s no brand collab or exciting venture, but it’s a way of making my space feel more like mine.
This space is somewhere I want people to relate too, and I hope the next couple of things I have in the pipeline excite you as much as they do me.
Actually, save something.
Now, I know us brits don’t talk about money and what not, but WE all know we everyone has some form of it. The debt spoke about earlier, isn’t a huge. In fact, after my next pay day it will pretty much cease to exist. Thank god!
Something else that ceases to exist is my bloody savings. Have multiple savings accounts with 0.02 in, just makes me feel a little bit sick.
Every month I have these great ideas which will leave me in the black (if that’s right) but I never quite manage it, so let’s hope July is just a little bit easier for me and my bank balance.
Have a trip somewhere.
This might be counter- productive in regards to saving but I NEED A BREAK. Waking up in bedding that I don’t have to wash, to drink coffee till it comes out my ears and to see something outside the norm is something that my soul just needs to experience.
As a rule, I haven’t traveled anywhere other than Greece. In fact traveling makes me ridiculously anxious, but right now, I would happily jump on a plane. Whilst I may not have achieved anything this year, there’s been plenty of drama: so a nice relaxing break a fair way from my problems sounds bloody epic.
Put myself first.
One of my great faults is taking on other people’s problems. I hate seeing those around me going through the ringer. There’s been so my instances that I’ve jumped into other people’s arguments and ended up being the one in the wrong. And because of this, I’m guilty of not taking enough time to myself.
By nature I’m pretty happy working day to day, so happy infact that I struggle to turn my brain off. Not only do I struggle to calm my brain but I tend to be hard on anything I do achieve. I constantly find myself wondering if I’m doing enough or if I’m even good enough in the first place. Combining this with being my friends and family’s equivalent to Jerry Springer, it’s safe to say I feel enough.
With questions running around my head, day in day out, I know taking time away from the worlds troubles is needed.
So with those, goals set, I hope the next six months will be much more productive? Or just filled with wine*shrugs*.
In the past I have dabbled with favourites posts, and thought it would be a pretty cool to introduce it back to my blog. Sharing things that I love for that month isn’t only a great way to introduce new products to you guys but its a way I can remember what I keep reaching for.
My Few Faves post, will talk about all the things I love from lifestyle, beauty and music to holidays and trips I take. Mixing up my Faves post is something that I really wanted to do. With so many bloggers around, I’m aware things can be pretty same-y -so, introducing new areas to my favourites post may make it seem like I have a life and don’t sit in my room watching crap on YouTube. *shrugs*
Any way, I digress, this faves post will hopefully be up every 1-2 months. Being a creature of habit I don’t tend to find new things. So for me personally, I need to wait a little longer than most to share the things I keep reaching for.
After being introduced to the mega murder podcast(in the best possible way), after watching a Katie Snooks, vlog last year- its safe to say i’ve become pretty obsessed. I have spent hours at work typing away listening to the prerfect mix of murder and Sarcasm.
But, before I start fangirling, I’ll let you know what my excitement is all about. My favourite murder is a podcast, starring Georgia Hardstark and Karen Kilgaraff, where the two true crime lovers speak openly (and bloody hilariously-excuse the pun) about Murder’s throughout the years.
From Jack the Ripper to the ‘I survived ‘ tales, the two incredible, podcast hosts speak with compassion and humilty- whilst cracking more jokes than your pissed up uncle at Christmas. In theory this podcast shouldn’t work, but the charasmetic host’s, some how have managed it. If you are a murderino, or just interested in true crime then this is the perfect posdcast for you.
Recently these two incredible women have realeased a book called ‘Stay Sexy and Don’t get murdered’– Which I will no doubt be purchasing on Pay day. This book discusses topics which have been seemingly untouched by the two creative genius’s. Speaking about situations such as depression, eating disorders and I’m sure some murders, in their own way. I can’t really speak about the book, as I haven’t read it but, I am almost sure it will be on a faves post very soon.
My daily go too, Ester Lauder Day Wear, is my morning savour! After getting up at 4.45am I just can’t be bothered to go full force with make up. Estée Lauder has out done themselves when it comes to this product. Initially the product comes out as a grey paste, which when rubbed into your skin oxidises, bronzing up your complexion. The product blends into skin with minimal effort- perfect for my 5 am brain!
I tend to use a brush to apply to my skin as it just makes my skin look so much more even than when i apply with my hands or a sponge. HOWEVER, recently, Alex, from icovertthee, used her hands with this product and her skin looked flawless- so you, do you.
Now, just a warning, if you use any more than a pea sized amount then you will more than likely look as orange as David Dickinson and be an oily mess by the time you leave house- so save your product and your skin and use only a tiny amount.
With a high end brand, you’d expect the price to be up there and if I’m honest, just thinking about forking over £43.00(but I’m sure I only paid £36) for one product hurts my bank balance- but what I will say, is the the amount of product you get is bloody amazing. I bought this product about 6 weeks ago and I’ve barely used a quarter of it(and I use it at least 5 days a week). So this product’s longevity is INSANE!
Estee Lauder Day wear, definitely comes with it’s pros and cons but I never want to be without this product, so it simply had to be in my faves post.
Divinely uninspired to a hellish extent, could be one of the best albums I have ever listened too. Being up there with albums such as Adele’s 19 and pretty much any song sung by Sam Smith, Lewis Capaldi has made an album that I believe everyone needs in there life. Vinyl, iTunes, Cassettes, if you’re old school, where ever you get your Capaldi fix – get it( or click the link to listen on Spotify).
One of my favourite songs on the Album is One. In hindsight the song is about the ultimate love story starting from the ultimate heartbreak but it always seems to make me think of the people that have always picked me up after I’ve fallen or failed miserably. From start to finish this song fills me with strength, unless I’m drunk and I cry like a baby for 3 minutes.
Drunken sobbing aside, I pretty much love the whole album, its been on repeat since I downloaded it. So, trust me when I say, the hype is real.
If you’ve read my recent post, Bad Skin Diaries, then you will know trust my skin has been in dire need of help- and my lips were no exception. With the change in season and my skin flare up my lips were swollen and sore, even smiling made me reach for the Panadol! It wasn’t until I strolled up to the Clarins counter, that was introduced to this little lip saver.
Clarins Comfort Lip Oil, £ 19, May be on the pricey side for what can only be described as an Uber luxourious lip balm- but trust me when I say, it is worth every penny. Just days* after I lathered my lips in this super soft oil, my lips were much more comfortable and in just a week you could see my lips visibly start to heal. And a month later? My lips are fully healed and nourished- and I could not be happier!
So if you are suffering with your lips then this is the product for you.
* I applied this at least three times a day or when my lips had become sore.
And, there you have it, my first favourites post for what seems an age. I hope you enjoyed it.
Hope to see you soon,
**Disclaimer- images will be getting better, but as you know I am useless. Please bare with me*
I know its been a while but I promise I’m back with a metaphorical bang. As may of my long term readers will know each month I try and share a blogger I love, and this month is no exception. Today I have the pleasure of sharing an interview with the ultimate gal pal. Armed with positivity, motivational quotes and absolutely epic blog posts it’s no surprise that this little babe, has been sought after for more than a few exciting opportunities. Whether you’re looking for skincare reviews or a piece to kick start your day, Alicia is the blogger for you.
Alicia A La Mode was a way for Alicia to channel her thoughts and creativity. Each blog post Alicia creates is unbelievably empowering with quotes from inspiring men and women such as Beth Sandland and the legendary Ram Dass.
From humble Piczo beggings to a whole new realm of creativity, Alicia A La Mode, is the one place you can go and trust every word- or maybe, even find a new favourite motivational quote or two.
So, without further ado, let me introduce you to the wonderful Alicia.
Hi Alicia, thank you for taking part!
I can’t tell you how excited I am to have you here!
So my first question has to be what made you take the plunge and start blogging ?
Thank you for having me! So, What made me take the plunge? well, I don’t know if you remember Piczo websites? I had one in secondary school and that’s basically where I learnt all my html stuff haha! I would upload so many pictures of my friends and writing about our memories and I just loved it, I grew out of that by 15 and then in my early twenties I stumbled across beauty blogs and thought omg I would love to do this, I tried for a while, then gave up (its harder than it looks!) And then I met my boyfriend and he was so supportive and bought me a camera and told me I should give it a go and I’ve never looked back since! (thanks babe haha)
For me, personally, you and your content has change over the past year. Your content has become so much stronger and you’ve seemed to become so much more confident within your social media, is this something you’ve been trying to work on ? Or have do you think you’ve just come into your own with experience ?
Awww that is actually really sweet for you to notice. I feel like I’ve learnt a lot about myself and I’ve found my strengths in the past year or so and my confidence has just grown with the experience, it definitely helps when I get messages or engagement in response to something I’ve spoken about, it helps to know I’m on the right track and I’m making a small difference to other people.
You’ve recently spoken openly about suffering with eczema and the effect it had on your confidence. Was this something you were nervous about writing? Or something you felt like you needed to say?
I am actually really nervous about writing such personal post that I was currently dealing with but after writing about my health anxiety and smear test experience I had such amazing feedback from that I just kept thinking back to that feeling and use that as motivation. I really do get a buzz from helping other people out and I have always been quite a confident person, ever since I was a child I haven’t ever cared about other peoples opinions (about myself) but I felt like for the first time I was feeling that self conscious feeling due to my skin flaring up so I was looking for blog posts that had an eczema related post so I would feel better and less isolated but I only found a couple so I thought right I need to just talk about it myself, see if anybody else is suffering and maybe I can help someone in my situation.
Just one of the things I admire about you so much is your passion for blogging, each post just seems so individual to you. Every post you write seems to be so truthful, is this something you thinks important?
Yes 100%! I’ve been the same ever since I was young I think it’s so so important to be honest about everything . It doesn’t matter if it’s in real life or on my blog I would never recommend a product or speak about anything if I didn’t fully believe in it and I think it takes a lot of honesty to build trust in either a friend or a reader so I wouldn’t ever jeopardise that. I always write blog posts as if I’m talking to a friend so I hope my readers find it easy to relate.
📸 owned by Alicia
Throughout, all your blogs you use inspirational quotes from many influential women. Is encouraging women some thing you want to continue throughout your blog (because you do it bloody amazingly)?
Thank you so much! I do love encouraging women I think it’s important to teach young women about it too. I’m the friend everybody goes to for advice too, I’ve been told so many times that I should be a life coach haha! I just love helping people and giving them that extra bit of encouragement because it really does stick with you.
Speaking of admiration, Is there anyone you admire? And if so why does that person stand out to you?
My late nan, she was such huge inspiration to me and she was actually the one who told me I should be a writer one day haha! She was such a strong woman and so so caring but she wouldn’t ever let anybody take advantage of her, she knew her worth and that’s what I admired so much about her. I am a lot like her and everything I believe in is due to what she taught me.
In fact, your writing style as a whole is so incredibly positive, do you find it comes naturally or does writing make you feel more positive within your self?
It comes fairly natural to me, on the whole I’m quite positive. I do tend to overthink things and I got in a state with my eczema but overall I like to look at the bigger picture and concentrate on the more important stuff. I don’t see the point in holding grudges or talking negatively about people, I think it’s better to look for the positives in anything you can, otherwise you’ll become quite miserable. I love laughing and don’t like taking things too seriously so positivity always wins for me haha.
Just like you’re writing, your fashion is something so unique to you. Is fashion something you want to introduce more ?
I’m in too minds about this, I love fashion and I started this blog intending it to be a fashion blog but I just got so carried away with beauty in the end! I would like to feature more of my fashion because I have quite an eclectic taste, I don’t even think you could label it, I love cool casual clothing but then I love floaty boho outfits too, I don’t stick to one style at all I just see something I like and wear it, the only thing that puts me off is the guilt if I feel like I’m adding to the fast fashion industry so maybe I could post more ethical brands or a capsule wardrobe perhaps?
I’m one of your recent posts, you opened up a lot more about crystals. As some one who has carried rose quarts around with me for years, I can’t help but wonder has introducing crystals helped you find your ‘zen’?
Oh really? Me too! Haha. It definitely has helped me, my nan used to use them all the time so I kinda grew up already knowing what they were and she gave me my own one on my first day of school when I was around 5 years old? But I grew up and just didn’t give it much thought but after she passed, I was so grateful to be able to keep her crystals and then that sparked up my fascination with them again. I think they are so beautiful to look at regardless to whether people think they work or not I just find it reassuring to have something physical to hold to help me feel better if that makes sense? I have rose quartz all around my bath even rose quartz candle holders and it helps me relax sooooo much, I love it.
One of the many bloggers you’ve quoted throughout your work is Beth Sandland, is traveling something you would be interested in sharing on your blog ? Is it something you keep to yourself(we all need something)?
Oh I love Beth! She has definitely inspired me to travel more, I love that she is very realistic and transparent. I feel like if I go travelling, even in the UK I will definitely share it on my blog I’m a bit of an anxious traveller in all honesty, so I would have to bring you all on the journey too – as moral support!
You’ve accomplished so much with your blog recently. Blogosphere, Collabs and finally figuring a way to combine our past few months. What’s next for Alicia A La Mode?
Aw, Thank you! I would be over the moon if I had my own podcast, I would love to tackle taboo subjects with other women and I would love to write my own book or create my own wellness journal so I could physically help or teach women to love themselves or just to feel amazing. I really think self love is a priority and I would have it based around that.
And that empowering little answer is the end of this incredible interview with Alicia, I hope you’ll agree that she is more than an average blogger. Her enthusiasm is not only not only infectious but needed in such a dramatic blogosphere. Whether its sharing inspirational quotes from other incredible women, or speaking openly about topic that effect us all. Alicia A La Mode, is one of the most exciting up and coming bloggers for me, personally.
With the recent growth in her blog , I cant wait to see what the future holds for this amazing creator (and her ADORABLE pug, Louie). I hope you agree that, Alicia is proof that if you are true to yourself a glass ceilings are made to be broken.
Whether, it’s her introduction of cristals, or the encouragement she weaves in every post, it’s a little wonder why Alicia is one of my favourite bloggers. I couldn’t be more grateful for this amazing blogger to take part in this series.
I hope you feel the same.
If you want to find out more about Alicia, feel free to search her socials (see below) or use the hyperlinks at the beginning of the post. Alternatively, leave a comment and show this megababe some love!
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I’d apologies for not posting something recently but, I just haven’t felt myself. I’ve felt so low, I couldn’t shake the mood I was in and I was constantly over thinking a few of the situations I’m in. Life’s been so hectic and I’ve been miserable- so I thought I’d keep it myself.
Whilst I was down and out I noticed my skin was starting to become dry, a few days later my skin was sore to the touch- even something as simple as speaking left me close to tears.
Other than a few hormonal break outs I’ve never had any issues with my skin- or at least not to this extent- there was never any real pain.
Not to sound dramatic(but I am 100% going to) whilst I’ve been feeling so low, my poor skin only added to my moods. Not only was I down and out, but I was so self conscious- and that left me hating myself.
After a heart to heart with a few of my nearest and dearest, I decided to see a some one about my skin. Moments after walking into my 15 minute appointment I was told I was probably allergic to drug store make up. So, after this diagnosis I marched into my nearest Debenhams like only a pissed off woman can do, and begged for some help at the clarins counter.
And they didn’t disappoint- the lovely ladies didn’t just help me chose some basic products but they helped me feel comfortable enough to talk about how much of a confidence knock I’ve had. After sharing how down I was the amazing women (who I wish I got the names off) told me I how often this happens. So, after buying a lot of new skin care and a heck of a lot of research into some new make up, The bad skin diaries was born(originally being called the shit skin diaries But sometimes I have to be PG).
3 days in.
In the first few days my main focus was taking away the pain, as silly as it sounds I actually missed being able to smile without looking like The Joker. One of the first products to make a difference was the Clarins Lip Oil, £18.00. Being instantly drawn to the pricey product due to the comforting, yet hydrating formula- I wasn’t disappointed. Now, £18.00 for what is essentially a lip balm is more draw dropping than a Jeremy Kyle contest with A full set of teeth- but I will categorically say this product is worth its weight in GOLD.
Just a few days after using this product my lips were so nourished and while the dry skin didn’t miraculously vanish, I was no longer in pain- I could laugh to my hearts content again.
With the introduction of Clarins Skin care, my skin was so much more comfortable. The higher price point initially made me so dubious, but just a few days in my skins texture, look and pain has completely changed for the better.
7 days in
Honestly, just 7 days in, I was shocked with the texture of my skin. By simply swapping my skin care with something a bit pricier and with less shit in it, my skin was no longer painful. Whilst my lips and skin was still dryer than the Sahara, i started to feel so much more comfortable in the way i looked.
In the past week I saw the blisters (yes my skin was so bad I had tiny blisters on my eyes) i had previously on my skin, all but disappear. The swelling in my eye had become barely noticeable. As for my lips, well, they had finally begun to heal. No longer were they flaking. Obviously, they wer still dry and areas of my skin would still peel, but they were no longer bleeding, nor was I reaching for pain killers every time I ate. If you take anything from these posts, make sure its this. BUY A BLOODY LIP OIL.
30 days in
As I’ve reached the end of the very generously travel sized products, clearing had to offer my skin is pretty much how I’d like it. Blisters have gone, my skin is mostly hydrated and I’ve had no break outs in weeks. Right now, I have one patch of dry skin above my eye- but honestly that was the place when my skin issues started. Whilst my skin is healing Inever expected results like this. I never expected things to happen over night but 30 days, no pain, blisters disappearing and skin being moderately hydrated and some what glowwy- I’m in.
Whilst my skin was bad my lips made me feel awful about myself. I love wearing a nude lip, for me, lipstick makes me feel like my make up is finished. So when my lips looked like they were melting off my face, i started to feel so low about myself. And now?
My lips are the best they have been in years. I have one corner of my mouth that’s red. In comparison to a few weeks ago, that is nothing. So, I am hopeful, that in a few weeks, I’ll be finding my lanolin free lipstick. Any recommendations, leave them in the comments.
If you have made it to the end of this very long post, treat yourself to a cup of tea, because babe, you deserve it.
What i do want to say is whilst this post is most definitely Clarins heavy, but if something works, I’m not going to change it. In the past few weeks my skin has pretty much transformed. I’ve spent less time crying over my skin and more time treating it. A combination of the Lip oil, Moisutriser and mask, I can finally say I am comfortable with how my skin looks, and trust me when I say its been a while since I can proudly say that!
Hope you enjoyed he first instalment! I’ll try and get the next one up next week!