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26.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way..., Uncategorized December 9, 2018

As you sit and read this it will be my 26th birthday. I wanted to share with you the things I will and wont be taking into my 26th year.

In the words of Kylie Jenner, my 25th year on the planet has been the year of ‘like realising stuff’. Without sounding naive, this year needed to happen. 365 days ago I was a shy, anxious, shell of a person. And now? Well, now. I finally feel like my life has meaning- and honestly, it’s all I’ve ever hoped for.

Throughout this post I am going to share with you some images that remind me of the best moments of the year– the good the bad and the questionable.

You can never have enough knickers.

I cannot be the only person on this planet to constantly seem to be running out of underwear. Each month I add to my collection ( if you can call over priced pieces of cloth that hide your modesty a collection) yet I still end up rummaging through the ironing pile trying to find a pair on a cold Monday morning. Standard, amirite?

You are constantly reinventing yourself.

A massive lesson I have learned this year is personal growth is reinvention. You are not the person you were yesterday and you certainly aren’t the person you will be tomorrow. Reinventing yourself as the person you are is never quite finished- to be honest I don’t ever think it accomplishable.

Often we are told we should be a certain way, even when every inch of our being is telling us we are something different. Well, for me my reinvention was spurred on by gaining the ability to stop listening the negative people I had in my life. Whether it came from a place of love or hate, the comments were unnecessary and made an already anxious girl scared to create the life she wanted.

Through out my 26 years I have screwed up a lot. I trusted the wrong people, I let the wrong men into my life and honestly, I let my insecurities get the best of me. For the longest time I was paranoid. Until I asked for help and gave my life a kick up the arse.

You are enough.

I’ve never felt like I was enough. A strange but honest statement. If I am to be totally honest its been my point of view since I was a child. Until a fateful doctors appointment that changed my view and now, for the first time in 2191.45 days (according to Siri) I know I am enough and I am exactly where I need to be in my life.

From some one who used to shy away from new adventures, who couldn’t cope with life going wrong, and some one who genuinely felt shite about herself. I know I am perfectly okay with both me and the way my life is going right now.

And it is perfectly acceptable to love films as much as you love shoes.

It may come as no surprise to you (especially if you follow @whatemwears1 on Instagram) that I am head over heels with shoes- pun intended. In the words of Tina Fey’s character from In Her Shoes-

‘Shoes always fit’.

The only thing that’s stayed with me as long as my love of shoes is my struggle with my weight. When my clothing gets tight and I start to feel low within myself, I grab my favourite pair of boots, jeans and a cosy jumper and feel a little more myself.

Likewise with film and comic franchises. I have recently shared with you my love for Harry Potter, but in this case at least, we are speaking about my admiration for superhero’s. Marvel of course, is one of the biggest franchises in the world- you’d be hard up to find some one who doesn’t admire some superhero. Like Harry Potter, Marvel (its comics and films) are a way i can escape when my anxiety hits me like a train. Having an escape is a brilliant way to cope even when you feel like you cant. So, yes, I love me some superhero’s, wizards and house elves.

For anyone questioning why I’ve put these two things together, I love them equally and for me, a pair of shoes I totally adore is my cape *inserts Edna from the Incredables saying ‘ No Capes*. Shoes and accessories to many people are super powers, in the same way Make up boosts peoples confidence. A good pair of heels can boost not only height but the ability to take on what ever shit comes your way.

Shoes are superhero’s.

It doesn’t matter if its shallow, if it makes you feel better its worth it.

I’m a girl who likes her hair and nails done- and no one will ever make me feel ashamed of it. I’ve always felt my mind wander and my ability to cope with certain situations(and people) was completely at 0. And now? With the help of a fresh cut, a quick tan and even a new nail colour- I feel as if I can cope.

Even if only for a little while.

Now, I completely understand that this post is 1000% rambles, but a) the clue is literally in the blog name and b) its my birthday and i can ramble if i want too. In all seriousness, 25 is a year I will not be forgetting in a hurry. The situations I have been put in and the changes the year has brung have allowed me to continuously grow as a person and no matter how things change, develop or even stay the same. I know that 26 will continue to define who I am.

With the help of a lot of gin and prosecco, I know I’ll get through the next 12 months with a lot of laughs and a high alcohol percentage.

Always love.

Another millennial getting closer to 30.

What I bought and received for my 25th.

Lifestyle, Uncategorized December 14, 2017

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PST: THIS IS THE LAST BIRTHDAY POST I PROMISE!

I know I have been rabbiting on about my bloody 25th for what seems like an eternity. Well, 3 days. BUT this year has really been amazing for me and I have been so fortunate to share it with the people that have really made it special.

Before I get into this post, I don’t want this post to come across as ‘braggy’. I have been so fortunate with the gifts I have received and the people which have sent their love and well wishes. Many of you will know, that I have had my struggles this year, so this little positive weekend away really has made me realise all the good that’s in my life.

Whilst we were in one of my favourite cities in the world, I decided to treat myself to a few things I have been eyeing up. And I am not disappointed.

The new additions really have given my wardrobe (and spirits*Cough*Gin*cough*) a little bit of a lift, so I am so excited to share them with you.

From Me, to Me.

Primark Marie Hoodie, £10.

I have been eyeing up this cropped hoodie for a little while now. After watching Emily Canham’s, trip away with Primark to DISNEY, in fact. The aristercats is probably hands down one of my favourite Disney films. So when I saw this cute little cropped hoodie, I had to have it.

After scoping out the store I was thrilled when I finally got my hands on it! I am only 5’4, so this cropped hoodie actually hangs lower than anticipated. Sitting just above the top of my jeans in perfect for me and my style. Although tshirt should really be worn with it in these -2 temperatures, we are currently having. Bringing me nicely onto the lining. The fluffy, snuggly lining that makes me instantly want to fall asleep and have done with my day. YES, it is that warm and toastie.

And cute cause obvs Marie is the sassiest, little cat you ever did see!

Next Pearl Roll Neck Jumper, £35

Like the Marie Hoodie, I have been debating buying this roll neck jumper for a little while now. I don’t really know what stopped me. On this particular day I decided to finally take the plunge and treat myself to it. And I have no regrets.

The soft wool (which was initially itchy), really does keep me warm. The cute pearl detailing works so well with the subtle grey colouring really is encompases the feeling of winter. In addition the boxy cut, it would work perfectly with a faux leather skirt or jeans.

At £35 it is a little much for a jumper but I honestly don’t think its too bad when you realise I am going to live in it for the rest of winter.

Masons, Steve’s Apple Gin, £40.

Would it be one of my blogs if I didn’t mention something alcoholic?

Masons is one of my favourite gin distilleries. I was so excited to see their stall at The Christmas market I basically threw my money at the poor girl serving me!

Also, this gin tastes absolutely amazing. YES, TO APPLE GIN!

Kisses (essentially marshmellow covered in Chocolate), £5.

CHOCOLATE COVERED MARSH MELLOWS, HELLO YOU BABE. These babies were deifinatley worth the calories! And for a £1 each I would be stupid not to buy 5, right?

From friends.

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Slythers, did good.

My best friend has well and truly spoiled me this year. In fact I can’t quite believe it. In addition to sorting the room out (thanks babes), she bought me something I definitely thought I would never own. A David Attenborough candle.

When I say I love David Attenborough, I mean I ADORE THE MAN! Seriously, I have a problem. When I was presented with this particular gift, I  with out any doubt say I laughed for hours (and still do for hours).

This utter babe, didn’t just stop at a candle either, she treated to a Rock and Rose Emoji Ring too. This sassy little emoji, is most definitely one of my most over used emoji’s and probably, something I need to look at when I need my sassy pants on.

Sarah, you wonderful human. You really did make my birthday, even if you are a slytherin.

The blogging babes.

I do have a few blogging girls which I speak too quite regularly, so when I went to vist one and saw the gifts our little group chat had bought, it took all my strength not to burst into tears. The gifts below were so unexpected and I can’t thank you all enough.

A stunning bunch of flower’s, two beautiful copper wine glasses and a few cheeky bottles of wine. All displayed in a mound of bubble gum pink wrapping.  Its safe to say these girls know me far to well! Thank you!

I just wanted to say another quick thank you, to everyone I has made my 25th celebrations amazing. I don’t think I can quite put into words how amazing it has been- which is a bit of a shame cause I’m a blogger.

Cheers, you babes! xxx

PS. I am sorry for not tagging gifts or the people that gave me them, this doesn’t mean I am not grateful, by any means.

 

A little natter.

Lifestyle, Uncategorized December 12, 2017

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Hey there, you beautiful bunch.

Over the past few weeks I have most definitely been looking at my life. The changes, my mental health and the things I have learned in 2017 have definitely shaped the way I think and feel. As of right now, I am a much more grounded person- give or take a few tantrums over jeans not fitting the way I imagined.

This lil’ blog of mine is something I am so proud off. From the opportunities I have been given and the people I have met along the way- blogging has really effected my life. So thank you, you wonderful humans, for giving me a place to moan.IMG_3762

Clothing to me, has always been something I hated but loved equally as much at the same time. Yet, after excepting the fact I am never going to have the body of Claudia Schiffer or the face of Scarlett Johansson, I  can finally drop the idea of ‘what I am supposed’ to look like and embrace the face (and body) I have been given.

For years I have been quite unhappy with the way I look, not just with the clothes hanging in my wardrobe but the body that filled them. You see, when my mental health declines, I put a lot of weight on. Neglecting myself in a way many wouldn’t deem neglect. Yet, it is.

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I am not for one moment saying you have to lose weight, nor should you. I am simply saying I needed to feel better in my own skin and losing weight, finding my style and making myself a priority has definitely made me feel much better within myself. Finding confidence to further not only my independence but my blog, career has really given me a different outlook when I comes to achieving the thing I never thought possible.

As I sit back and proof read the above snippet I realize how deep, I have gotten, in fact how deep my blog is. And it is far from the blog I initially thought I wanted. My initial idea was one of a space where someone could go for just five minutes, have a brew and find something to smile at. In fact my blog is very much representative of myself. A bit emotional, slightly sarcastic and a little bit Yorkshire.

I realize that there isn’t really a point to this blog post. I just started writing and hoped for the best. Tomorrow you can see the amazing weekend I’ve had to celebrate my birthday, but for now, I hope you enjoyed this little blog. Cause I really enjoyed writing it.

Always Love.

Em xxx

Disclaimer: All images are my own, taken from a blog post I will no longer be publishing but I loved the images so much I couldn’t not use them.