Author: Em

25, blogger. Swears a little too much and definitely drinks too much gin. Just a girl wanting to make the world smile.

2018.

Lifestyle December 31, 2018

Let me set the scene, this time last year I was still massively in love with my ex, intent on losing weight and had I wanted the world – but with minimal effort. Even to this day I can’t quite understand what possessed the changes that 2018 brought, all I do know is I will be forever grateful for the life lessons 2018 has taught me.

Now by no means did any of these life lessons come easy, every change usually came after a heartbreaking decision which left me questioning myself. With the help of gin, laughs and even blogging 201, has become a year which turned into a surprising, yet thrilling

Throughout this post, I will share with you the things that I have learnt over the past year. From simple naive things my past self never knew, to the mammoth career change which allowed me to find my focus and fall in love with writing all over again. 2018, may have brought questionable political issues and a love of avacado no millenial ever knew they needed- but to me, 2018 has allowed me to realise that i am enough.

It doesn’t matter what others think of you.

NOW, where do I begin with this? In the past I have spent so much time worrying about how I come across to others. Constantly worrying that people who logically have no real impact on my life, don’t like more or judge my every movement. In past years its sent me into an anxious spiral which in turned into a battle with my own mental health. After being put on antidepressants a few months back, my mental health challenge began to subside, and with that I could build a sense of self. A sense of self that I have never had in the past 26 years of existence. And for that I will be forever grateful.

Embrace change.

As i looked back on the year i realised how much my life has changed. At the moment of those changes I began to have every area in my life questioned- not only by those around me but by myself too.

As time went on (literally talking 6 months, plus) I realised, whilst I still question my every move, I was still continuously moving forward. Whether or not others thought so, I was noticing the changes and that was enough. Every day I got up at 4.30 am, went to work and attempted to rectify any issues I had created the day before. This alone showed a tenacity I never knew I had. Yay, for me.

It’s perfectly okay not to be like your friends- And they should respect that too.

I have to say this could be my proudest achievement, my friends are beautiful, career driven, family focused women who constantly inspire me to push my own boundaries. Yet, for years I compared myself to them, so much so that it often left me feeling slightly insignificant. Actually more than slightly.

Realising that I am just as capable as my amazing friends, even with my Bridget Jones’ tendencies. Em Rambles is just as brilliant as so many others, all I had to realise was that I am totally worth it.

Saying no isn’t negative.

I’ve always wondered if saying no was a sign of weakness. Through out this year the term no, has gone from a negative term,into the most empowering word I know. I said no to a ex, I said no to toxic thoughts and I said no to others judgements holding me back.

Saying no is by no way derogatory, its empowering. Everyone should know the power of saying no.

Screw diamonds, chocolate is a girls best mate.

Think about it, period pains> chocolate. Break up> Chocolate. Life happens> Chocolate. No matter the time or issue, i find myself reaching for a bar of Dairy Milk, usually only last approximately 6.5 seconds.

No matter the shit storm, chocolate will always be my therapist, lover and ultimate comfort- as long as I ignore the calories and bulging waistline.

Dress however, the bloody hell you want.

Every man woman and child, at one point in their lives will feel down about their body. We will mutter things such as ‘ my arms look massive in this’, ‘I can’t wear this ‘cause off my huge muffin top’ and I promise not to mention those ‘thunder thighs’ you think you have. In any case, every question we mutter in front of the mirror, is only wasting time. Wear what your scared too and if any one has something to say, flick your hair and carry one.

They’re only jealous anyway.

You can find happiness in the simplest of places.

Not to go all Harry Potter esque on you, but I’ve come to realise that happiness comes from the smallest things. The rush of caffeine after your first coffee, taking your bra of immediately after entering the house and doing a boobie shake and even the pure satisfaction you get after ticking the last thing of your to do list. These simple pleasures we all know can make a bad day a little less shit and more freeing (literally).

2018 has been such a learning curve for me personally. The things I have spoken about above are all things that I have come to realise within the last 12 months. Whether you’re year has been amazing or the worst of your life I ask you to look for the positives. Even when the world seems dark, there will be one spark of positivity which can ease the bad days, whether its a pet, a loved one or even a cup of tea and a good book.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I hope it has you thinking about the life lessons 2018 has taught you. Leave a comment below and share them with my, and we can celebrate together.

Here’s to an amazing 2019!

Em Rambles. X

Happy Birthday, Mum.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way..., Uncategorized December 21, 2018

On the date this blog post goes live it will be my mum’s birthday. I know many of you don’t know the relationship with my mum. So I thought I would introduce you to my amazing mum.

To celebrate the many years of awful presents, Mediocre gestures and the many forgotten cards, I thought I’d share with you just five things that my mum has taught me over the past 26 years. You see, my mum is pretty much one of my hero’s, as much as we argue, take the piss and annoy the crap out of each other. In a nutshell I know that no matter the situations life puts me in, I can cope because of the lessons she’s taught me.

So, mum, if you ever find your way onto this blog I simply wanted to say thank you for:

The definition of strenght.

I’ve made no secret on my blog that i have struggled with anxiety since me teens. What I may or may not have shared with you is my mum suffers with something similar. Throughout the years I have seen my mum battle with her mental health for years. Something that when I finally was diagnosed, I knew how to cope.

You see whilst my mum may sometimes feel like it,she has never given up. She gets up, goes to work, sees family and have a better social life than I ever have. Her mental health has its moments when things seem to go a little off yet, no matter the situation she has never given up on anything she has started. My mum is truly the strongest woman I know.

Mental health is difficult for anyone, sometimes our life has to stop to be able to start again down the line. Yet, for all intesive purposes my mum never has. If she was totally honest with her self, just for a moment she would find that no matter her struggle she has accomplished so much more than her self doubts would ever let her believe. Mental health issues or not, my mum will always be my hero.

It’s perfectly acceptable to say no.

One major difference between my mum and is how we show our affection for one and other. I, on one hand show love through hugs, and openly saying I love you. Yet, my mother is much more subtle in the way she shows her affection.

Offering her love through coffees and the occasional ‘are you okay?’. In her own way she reassures me through life’s problems, and whilst we often butt heads its our differences that makes the pair of us (I hope) realise that once I eventually own my own home, how much we will miss our caffeine filled arguments.

Any way my point with this is that, hugs, saying I love you and even the occasional pats on the back, sometimes make people feel uncomfortable- my mum for one. Each individual has there own comforts, for me that’s a hug at the end of the day, for my mum its running her a bath or making a brew she will ultimately not drink. In any case saying not to someone offering affection isn’t a weakness, its how someone else deals with their problems, when they and only they are ready they will come and let you know when you are needed.

It’s perfectly acceptable to laugh at your own jokes.

Whilst my mum and I may show our affection differently we both think we are hilarious. A sea of dirty jokes, jugedgments and sarcasm will ripen any sour day. This point may be little, and may be silly to some but this is my favourite characteristic of my mum. Her ability to laugh in any situation- even if it is some what inappropriate.

Mum, I love you to bits, keep making your dirty jokes, innuendos and I hope you continue to cackle through the next 365 days and more.

Don’t give up on people even if they give up on themselves.

Okay, now here’s this thing about my mum, whilst she may not be touchy feely, she has never given up on me, or for any one in her life for that matter. In the past I have made many mistakes, some I still regret to this day, but she has always taught me that the mistakes we make only shape the person we become. It doesn’t matter who you were 3 years ago it matters who you are right now.

So mum, here’s a little cheers to you, you have taught me so much more than this little list. We often argue, share chocolate and eye rolls, bu what I love about our realtionship the most is that no matter the time, place or even time of the month weve always got each other’s backs.

Simply put, the pair of us have been through a shit tone of stuff and there is plenty more to come. Whilst the world around us is constantly changing, my pure admiration for you will and has never differed.

I LOVE YOU MUM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

P.S. Pornstar martinis to follow shortly.

Three 2018 realisations.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way..., sex and relationships, Uncategorized December 17, 2018

This year has been the year of,like, realising stuff- Kylie Jenner.

2018, has been a year I needed. An eye opening realisation, that the only thing holding my life back was me. And believe me it’s something I’ve rectified.

Over the years I’ve always thought I had to be some one else- that showing the real me would leave me lonely and insecure. Whilst at times I still feel those things in abundance, accepting who I am has only made me happier. With being happier my somewhat dull personality shines through, all the dorky, sarcastic and slightly flirty characteristics that once made my skin crawl sends me into hysterics. In short, 2018 is the year I finally accepted the person who I am and dropped my persona.

I’ve lost people along the way.

Towards the end of 2018, I backed away from a lot of friendships. Some I massively regret, others I’m not in the slightest bit bothered about. Losing the friends I have over the past 9 months has made me realise that friendships aren’t a two way street. Often one has feels the need to be there far more than the other. It’s unfair, but severely honest.I have always kept my friendship group small, I’m just not a ‘friends with everyone and their dogs, instantly’ kind of girl. And that’s perfectly okay.

In friendships I look for comfort. Comfort in the knowledge, that if I didn’t speak to a friend for months, if I needed them- they’d be there. Friends which bring sarcasm, prosecco and chic flicks after a break up( or just a Sunday). Being comfortable in any relationship is a big deal, and focusing on friendships which bring me nothing but comfort and sarcasm, are my best kinds of friendships.

Being selfish.

I’ve been pretty selfish over the past twelve months. And I am completely not ashamed to admit it. I’ve previously spoken about my anxiety and the struggles I have with confidence, being selfish was and still is needed.

I’ve slowly learnt to put myself first, to make my goals and happiness a priority. Waving goodbye to negative impacts, people and clothing(we’ve all got that sneaky dress hanging in our wardrobes that we will never fit back into). Over the past 9 months I feel better not only in my own skin but in the person who I am.

I may not be as confident as I would hope to be, but steps are being taken to unleash my inner Miranda priestly whilst of course embracing my Miranda heart qualities.

Accepting being alone.

For the longest time I’ve wanted to be with someone. I’d love to come home to a cuddle after an awful day at work, but unfortunately life had other plans for me. And as I write this post I Am so great fun it’s worked out that way.

Right now, I have some amazing changes coming, things that wouldn’t be a alive toe if I wear to be coupled up. As a rule I feel so empowered to continue to create a life that I want, that I deserve. I will never be the shell of a girl I once was and it wasn’t until I writing this post I realised, that no man ‘saved me’. I did, well, me, the girls and copious amount of gin.

In the next week I will be sharing some of the amazing news I’ve received recently. I can’t wait to share what is coming- 2019 is going to be the year of an empowered Em- and it’s about bloody time!

Always,

Em x

A Winter Retreat at Home.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way... December 13, 2018

A winter retreat, sounds beautiful doesn’t it?

Well, the ladies at Build a Life You Love thought so too. So this wonderful Mother/Daughter duo put pen to paper and wrote the most refeshing mental health book there is( well at least I think so). The Winter retreat takes you on a ‘journey’ of self care. By breaking down different areas of your life allowing you to focus and better your mental health, life and values.

I was lucky enough to receive a copy of ‘ The Winter Retreat’ from the wonderful ladies at Build a Life You Love- and I have to say its been a game changer. The festive time isn’t a period I don’t look forward too. Not because I hate christmas but I don’t like the effects the season of goodwill has on my mental health.

In the past I have spoken openly about my struggles with anxiety, so when Buble starts playing in every store in the land and people run about with a manic look in their eye, I become totally overwhelmed.

‘Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of some one else’- Judy Garland.

The Winter Retreat by Build a Life You Love, is one of the most important books I’ve ever read. In many ways this book is a self help guide but I personally like to call it my ‘ get me through life book’. The Winter Retreat allows you to asses all areas of your life including Money, your body and your virtual space. Throughout the book some pages are left blank, to allow you to asses your own life and map out how you can move forward positively.

Like the post is shared with you, yesterday, The Winter Retreat is all about having the ability to cope when you are overwhelmed. By assessing certain areas of you life and focusing on positively moving forward, The Winter Retreat can be a base of positivity of your life. For me personally certain pages spoke to me more than others. These points have been studied within an inch of its life and honestly, I never want to be with out this self help guide!

Throughout this post I wanted to share with you how this book relates to my life, in hopes that you think this guide will help you too. Remember folks, we all need a helping hand sometimes and this could be yours.

Your Body.

‘ There are sounds everywhere, Slow Down, take your time and breathe.’- The Winter Retreat.

In times of chaos we completely ignore the amount of rest our body needs, The Winter Retreat has a whole section on finding what your body needs- rest. Wrapping up in your thickest coat and snuggliest scarf, and going for a walk, listening to an audio book in the bath, are both ways people allow their body to rest. Finding your own ways to rest is key to feeling more like yourself and not an imposter.

Your Money.

‘ Take your time and try to spend ever penny but no more’.- The Winter Retreat.

As per many millennials out there I am awful when it comes to money. Whilst at uni i got into a lot of debt. I had overdrafts on my overdrafts- I never realised how difficult it would to pay them back or even find a job to afford to pay the awful things back. Yet, it happened- still to this day I don’t quite know how.

This part of the book spoke on another level. Christmas is upon us and like so many around I tend to go a bit swipe happy with my bank card. Nights out, christmas presents and what ever festive outing is thrown your way. Sticking to a budget is difficult in general but at christmas it becomes so much harder. The Winter Retreat discusses ways to budget effectly no matter the season.

Your Virtual Space.

‘Whatever we think about social media, it seems to be here to stay. So how about using it to enhance your life’-The Winter Retreat.

As a blogger I am fully aware at how toxic the virtual space can be. However, what blows my mind more is the ability the online world has to allow unlikely freindships to bloom. Take my relationship with Steph, for example. We met through blogging and my life would be missing much loved friendship without her. For that and that alone, blogging has enhanced my The Winter Retreat has enabled me to plan a few more things I never believed I could do.

Your community.

How about slowing everyone down and writing a letter.’ – The Winter Retreat.

Adoring your friends and family from behind a phone screen is something that everyone has done- I personally know I am guilty of it. My friends and close family so dear to me yet, I am still glued to my phone 90% of the time- and vice versa.

Putting your phone down and spending time with your loved ones is a retreat in itself. Even when arguments arise and the tensions settle ask yourself if you would want to be anywhere else?

Your Spirit.

‘ The final excersize in our Winter Retreat vision board.’- The Winter Retreat.

Spirit, means a lot of different things to different people- a ghost, your soul or even an alcoholic measure. Needless to say in this case YOUR SPIRIT is in regards to the motivation that comes from working on yourself. The spirit that pushes you to become better and develop your own goals and ambitions.

With the changes the book introduces the final segment of The Winter Retreat, introduces the motivation to finally put plans into action, for me it was questions about my body image and future career, for you? Well the possibilities are endless.

LETS BE HONEST, NOW.

This book will only help change your life if you want it too. Buying this book will not immediately change your life – its not the good fairy from cinderella. What `this book does do allow you to do is look at your own life and find the changes YOU want to make.

The Winter Retreat, cost £20 and is available here. I understand £20 can seem a lot but if you are feeling a little overwhelmed this book would be perfect for you.

I know this ‘review’ isn’t a generic review but I wanted to share my reaction to The Winter Retreat. This book has helped me put my thoughts in order and gave me the ability to really focus on my future. So thank you to Build a Life You Love for creating such a wonderful self care guide.

Always love,

Em x

A disclaimer: I answered a twitter ad an got accepted to review this wonderful book. I pride myself on being totally honest throughout my content so this review is in no way false. I truly love this book. For some one like me, it really is perfect!

Three tips for finding relaxation in the festive season.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way... December 12, 2018

In a mist of shoppers regret, over prices train fares and Christmas parties, it’s safe to say the season of good will, can leave you feeling pretty low. Some days your left with no energy and a headache which will only be cured by drinking your body weight in mulled wine. The festive season may be fun for some but for others it can only bring a crisis of confidence.

As an anxiety sufferer Christmas often leaves me feeling a little hopeless. Jumping from one task to the next, on a constant conveyer belt of ‘ festive joy’ that leaves me feeling numb. In previous years, Christmas has left me feeling panicked and my confidence in tatters. The introduction of the three tips I am about to share with you has turned the festive season into something I look forward too(rather than despise). I hope some of the tips I share within this post will help you find relaxation within the festive season

Create a relaxing space.

I for one can vouch that working in a space filled to the rafters, will only cause more stress and mental strain. Finding some where in the world which doesn’t feel so overwhelming can be tough- many don’t even seem to find calm in their own home. Having a room, a chair or even a corner where you can just be, is something that will allow your mind to settle.

When you do find somewhere to yourself it is important that you create a space in which you feel comfortable in. Blankets, books, candles are all great but if they don’t bring you (and only you) comfort then they become a bit redundant. If gaming or even playing the spoons calms your nerves then its important your space should reflect it. For me writing is calming, creating a blog post and adding to a novel I’m currently dreaming up settles my anxiety- so creating a relaxing space for me revolves around that.

Take your time.

At times the festive season can give F1 a run for its money. People in general seem to be hurrying through the day. Things that probably could wait a little while have to be done right that second, others demand constant attention without a mere ‘Thank you’. Christmas and the festivities that come with the it are hectic- there’s no other way of putting it.

In the midst of everyone else’s whirlwind, it is sometimes easy to forget that it is perfectly acceptable to take things at your own pace. For the season of goodwill, there seems to be a lot of panic and carnage in it wake.

Three questions should be asked when things around you seem to be going at a 100 miles an hour:

  • Does it have to be done right now?-If it does need to be ticked off the to do list imminently then deal with it straight away. Prioritising tasks is difficult but it will help you deal with christmas effectively and on your own terms.
  • Can it be completed online?-For people who feel uneasy within a crowded enviroment. Sometimes the effects of being in a confined space can last for days. If buying a gift or booking an appointment can be done online, surely it would be much more beneficial to do so.
  • And is it worth it?-If a lynx gift set is really that important to Aunt Jean, then she may need to re-evaluate her lifestyle. Ask yourself this question when everything festive (or not) leaves you feeling drained, unappreciated and pissed off. Is this gift/experience worth leaving you in feeling low? No, it isn’t.

Taking your time is not selfish, having a moment when you need to is necessary when it comes to surviving the Christmas carnage. Allowing yourself to go at your own pace is an effective way to ensure that all your tasks are done without hindering your mental health, confidence and Christmas experience.

Spend time with people who love you.

As cliche as this sounds spending time with people who love you is an instant method of relaxation. A cuddle from your partner, a cup of tea from a grand parent or even a snuggle from a beloved pet have all be scientifically proven to relax. In the spirit of christmas, we often forget how important spending time with loved ones is. We never know what is happening in some one else’s head, so spending time with people who make our hearts happy may not only benefit you.

Mental health, low confidence and feeling generally exhausted are all things which shouldn’t effect christmas- yet they do. With 1 in 4 people in the UK dealing with depression, Christmas can often lead to unnecessary stress. Finding your own ways to block out other peoples issues is difficult, but ultimately necessary for surviving the christmas period.

Whether you are a Grinch or a Christmas lover this time of year is difficult for everyone. If the tips I have shared with you have helped in any way then please let my know in the comments below. Alternatively feel free to share your own tips for surving christmas.

Always love,

Em x

Finding my style: Finding myself.

Lifestyle, Ramble all the way..., Uncategorized December 11, 2018

2018 has been a year and a half, hasn’t it? From awful political figures to the weirdest British summer of the century, 2018 seems to have everything.

For me personally, I found that my style massively reflects my mood. If I love a certain element of my outfit then I feel like I can tackle the day. As much as I am aware that this is quite superficial, it’s something I want to explore. From bright red sock boots to getting rid of the very orange toned blonde, 2018 has been the year I’ve found my style and with it self love I’ve never known before.

Letting go of the rules…

‘I can’t wear that, I’m too fat’.

Trust me, I’ve gotten tired of saying those words- usually standing next to something I adore. Over the past few weeks I’ve spent a lot of time wondering what my style would be like if I stopped playing by he rules. In truth, I think I’d be so much happier.

The start.

I recently followed in the tracks of Lydia Elise Mullen and started to build my stack. My helix and second wholes are one of my favourite things I have ever purchased. Everytime I see that simmering gold training stud in the mirror I’m reminded that I’m slowly edging toward the person I want to be (vomits profusely). A more confident, happier person who is taking steps to build a wardrobe she adores.

This skirt is something I wouldn’t have felt comfortable wearing a few months ago. This pink baby is £13 from Primark and perfect for the Christmas season. Also please mind the radiator.

New additions.

I recently bought a camo jacket from Primark, and honestly it could be one of the best purchases I have ever bought. Every time I throw it over a very basic outfit I feel so much more myself. As a woman who loves all things neutral having pieces like my camo jacket Really allow me to express my personality through clothing. When i wear prices such as this I feel so much more comfortable in my own skin, because I am being myself.

My love of neutrals is never going to die, intact, my heart will always be drawn to a black, white or beige polo. However my confidence does grown when I find something I adore that allows me to stand it from the crowd – even if it’s just a little.

Why Now?

Maybe the change in attitude is because of my recent birthday, or maybe, it’s down to being bored with feeling completely worthless. Looking for something to bring me out of my shell and grab life by the balls was never going to be easy for some one with the outlook on life that I do. So if I can find the confidence from a bold lip, a camo jacket or even my very much well loved red bag, then you can bet that I’m going to be rocking them to e high heavens.

From now on?

*sings in the voice of Hugh Jackman*

Letting go of the ‘classic’ rules has allowed me to share my own. The ‘rules’ are things I will be telling myself when I’m about to buy something I wouldn’t usually.

When in doubt, it’s one for a red lip– this winter intend on finding my red lip. Especially for those moments when you feel like you need an extra boost. Red lips are apparently * a rest confidence boost and every now and then don’t we all need one.

Say yes. Now this is an easy one:

  • If I love it.
  • Can afford it.
  • And think I’ll wear it more than 5 times in a month.
  • I’m buying it
  • Treat myself. Currently as I write this there is an absolutely stunning pair of celestial inspired earrings from Thomas Sabo. I’ve had I’m beady eyes on them ever since I saw Victoria from In the Frow, wear them in August. They’ve very beautiful (but quite expensive) earrings are something I just can’t stop thinking about them. Maybe they could be my birthday present to me?
  • What ever happens, I’m so excited to develop my style in a way that expresses my personality. I’ve always been a girl to blend into the background, only coming into the forefront when my sarcastic comments and eye rolls make some one giggle. I can’t wait to develop my style in a way that makes me feel more comfortable in my own skin. Here’s to the next few months and purchases… I’m sure you’ll find out about them in a blog post or two.
  • Always,
  • Em x
  • 26.

    Lifestyle, Ramble all the way..., Uncategorized December 9, 2018

    As you sit and read this it will be my 26th birthday. I wanted to share with you the things I will and wont be taking into my 26th year.

    In the words of Kylie Jenner, my 25th year on the planet has been the year of ‘like realising stuff’. Without sounding naive, this year needed to happen. 365 days ago I was a shy, anxious, shell of a person. And now? Well, now. I finally feel like my life has meaning- and honestly, it’s all I’ve ever hoped for.

    Throughout this post I am going to share with you some images that remind me of the best moments of the year– the good the bad and the questionable.

    You can never have enough knickers.

    I cannot be the only person on this planet to constantly seem to be running out of underwear. Each month I add to my collection ( if you can call over priced pieces of cloth that hide your modesty a collection) yet I still end up rummaging through the ironing pile trying to find a pair on a cold Monday morning. Standard, amirite?

    You are constantly reinventing yourself.

    A massive lesson I have learned this year is personal growth is reinvention. You are not the person you were yesterday and you certainly aren’t the person you will be tomorrow. Reinventing yourself as the person you are is never quite finished- to be honest I don’t ever think it accomplishable.

    Often we are told we should be a certain way, even when every inch of our being is telling us we are something different. Well, for me my reinvention was spurred on by gaining the ability to stop listening the negative people I had in my life. Whether it came from a place of love or hate, the comments were unnecessary and made an already anxious girl scared to create the life she wanted.

    Through out my 26 years I have screwed up a lot. I trusted the wrong people, I let the wrong men into my life and honestly, I let my insecurities get the best of me. For the longest time I was paranoid. Until I asked for help and gave my life a kick up the arse.

    You are enough.

    I’ve never felt like I was enough. A strange but honest statement. If I am to be totally honest its been my point of view since I was a child. Until a fateful doctors appointment that changed my view and now, for the first time in 2191.45 days (according to Siri) I know I am enough and I am exactly where I need to be in my life.

    From some one who used to shy away from new adventures, who couldn’t cope with life going wrong, and some one who genuinely felt shite about herself. I know I am perfectly okay with both me and the way my life is going right now.

    And it is perfectly acceptable to love films as much as you love shoes.

    It may come as no surprise to you (especially if you follow @whatemwears1 on Instagram) that I am head over heels with shoes- pun intended. In the words of Tina Fey’s character from In Her Shoes-

    ‘Shoes always fit’.

    The only thing that’s stayed with me as long as my love of shoes is my struggle with my weight. When my clothing gets tight and I start to feel low within myself, I grab my favourite pair of boots, jeans and a cosy jumper and feel a little more myself.

    Likewise with film and comic franchises. I have recently shared with you my love for Harry Potter, but in this case at least, we are speaking about my admiration for superhero’s. Marvel of course, is one of the biggest franchises in the world- you’d be hard up to find some one who doesn’t admire some superhero. Like Harry Potter, Marvel (its comics and films) are a way i can escape when my anxiety hits me like a train. Having an escape is a brilliant way to cope even when you feel like you cant. So, yes, I love me some superhero’s, wizards and house elves.

    For anyone questioning why I’ve put these two things together, I love them equally and for me, a pair of shoes I totally adore is my cape *inserts Edna from the Incredables saying ‘ No Capes*. Shoes and accessories to many people are super powers, in the same way Make up boosts peoples confidence. A good pair of heels can boost not only height but the ability to take on what ever shit comes your way.

    Shoes are superhero’s.

    It doesn’t matter if its shallow, if it makes you feel better its worth it.

    I’m a girl who likes her hair and nails done- and no one will ever make me feel ashamed of it. I’ve always felt my mind wander and my ability to cope with certain situations(and people) was completely at 0. And now? With the help of a fresh cut, a quick tan and even a new nail colour- I feel as if I can cope.

    Even if only for a little while.

    Now, I completely understand that this post is 1000% rambles, but a) the clue is literally in the blog name and b) its my birthday and i can ramble if i want too. In all seriousness, 25 is a year I will not be forgetting in a hurry. The situations I have been put in and the changes the year has brung have allowed me to continuously grow as a person and no matter how things change, develop or even stay the same. I know that 26 will continue to define who I am.

    With the help of a lot of gin and prosecco, I know I’ll get through the next 12 months with a lot of laughs and a high alcohol percentage.

    Always love.

    Another millennial getting closer to 30.