Panic Attacks: The truth.

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I am going to be 120% honest, I have no idea where I am going with this post. Many of you out there will know I suffer with panic attacks. Unfortunately, I don’t see myself living without them. But I HAVE , found a few ways to combat, end or put off them. Ultimately, the end result always seems the same- me sat on/in a toilet, crying wanting the a hole to come and swallow me up.

When all the dust has settled and the panic attack subsided, there is always a feeling of loss. Not loss in the sense of grief or misplacing a well-loved possession. Loss in the form of losing yourself. Weeks can pass and you simply don’t feel like you. Putting you knickers on in a morning, seems more daunting than a sky dive without a parachute.  This disconnected feeling really doesn’t leave. You don’t get a night off or a 5 minute commercial break, it lingers until you except that it won’t ever leave you.

But, it does.

Each panic attack varies, yes- it’s true. The length of time you feel like a glorified zombie is only personal to you; to that attack.

One morning, you will wake up and manage to put your wangers on the right way around, get dressed and boss that day like no other can. It just takes a little time. Remember, baby steps are still steps.

I can’t tell you how to deal with a panic attack. Hell, I can barely handle my own! But I can tell you what works for me and hope it helps you realize, just because it’s your struggle, you are most certainly not on your own.

Get out of the situation- if possible.

There has been no amount of times at work when I have had to escape to a toilet and ignore the world for 15 minutes to calm the f down. To be able just to combat that awful feeling of all you emotions attacking you like the Dothraki- just get out

Call someone.

We all have that one friend who we can call and physically not have to say a word to other than ‘Hi’. The one friend that can unintentionally natter on for an hour before even realizing you’re on the other line waiting to speak too. Call that friend, focus on their voice and their voice alone. Ignore everything else going on and just listen.

Sit down

Seriously, SIT DOWN. Stop pacing, walking, drifting- whatever you want to call it just bloody stop and give your feet a rest.

Have a cup of tea- no alcohol.

All jokes aside, in the prospects of getting out of the situation and just stopping what better excuse is there to make a brew? And tea is scientifically proven to calm you! Bonus.

I know, I’ve never met a decent alcoholic cup of tea either!

 

In the aftermath, let yourself feel whatever the hell you want to.

It’s built into use to shame ourselves for our feelings, but stopping the emotions brimming under the surface is arguable a reason for your anxiety to build up. Let your emotions out, if you angry be angry. If you want to cry, cry. It’s okay to feel whatever the hell you want too!

Remember, that having a panic attack is utterly BOLLOCKS shit.

I’m sorry I tried to put it a more PG rated way but it is simply that. Shit. From those moments when you mentally can’t stop your brain from working, to the physical ache that comes along for the ride- it’s all just shit.

Panic attacks come and go. A battle truly unique to us all, with the same common enemy. It’s not your fault. You are not wired wrong *repeat the two previous sentences*. Just remember you will beat a panic attack, the aftermath and the no doubt eventuality of it happening again. You will beat it and become stronger, even if you don’t feel it.

 

14 thoughts on “Panic Attacks: The truth.

  1. I really just wanted to give you a hug whilst reading this! I’ve been there on the panic attacks but thankfully mine were down a certain persons influence and they are no longer a part of my life. You are right, there’s no other way to put it other than it’s shit and you just need to get out, sit down and take a few minutes to let it pass! ❤️❤️

    Rachel || http://wordofrachel.com

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    1. Aww thank you lovely! Panic attacks are awful and I’m so happy to know that there will be a time when I don’t suffer too often with them. Unfortunately I think mine are a lot to do with my hormones.

      I am so happy that you no longer suffer with them and that the person in question has been banished out of your life! ❤

      Thank you for such a lovely comment xxx

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  2. I know this is a serious post but I did smile at putting your knickers on is more daunting than a skydive without a parachute… I didn’t smile because it’s funny but i know when I’m next in that state of mind I will think of it and it might help me put my wangers on lol. Seriously I love the way you write! I really hope the panic attacks ease up lovely, as you say tea helps.. I haven’t found an alcoholic one either and I’ve looked 😂 Xxxxx here if you ever need to chat xxxxxx

    lucylovesbeautyxo.com

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    1. I think Panic attacks are one of those things that you have to take with a pinch of salt on a ‘good’ day. And if I’m honest I write post’s like this because when I need to give myself a break, I can read this and remind myself that putting my knickers on in the morning isn’t such a hard task -neither is bossing the day.

      Aww thank you! That’s such a massive compliment! I’ve always struggled with writing even though I love blogging. So, you’ve just made my month! xxx

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  3. Good on you for sharing such a raw, open and honest post, Emma! I too have had a fair few panic attacks in my time and I agree that they’re incredibly shitty! They are so hard to cope with, but I think you’re advice just to let yourself feel how you need to feel is incredibly important! You need to just recover and try to calm down once the panic attack is over and being honest and true to your feelings is certainly the way forward! Just by talking about your experiences you are letting people know that they’re not alone and that is a fantastic thing! Big love for you!

    Abbey ❤️ http://www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

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    1. Thank you, I was so nervous to up load it and I honestly have no idea why.
      They are, I have to say I could have used much stronger words in my vocab to describe them.
      Exactly- its important to allow yourself that time to really feel the emotions that more than likely caused the anxiety in the first place.
      Oh thank you Abbey!

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  4. I’ve only had a few panic attacks in my life but they’ve all sucked so much, I’ve always found that getting out of the situation or calling a friend does the world of good x

    Kayleigh Zara 🌿www.kayleighzaraa.com

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  5. I’m so sorry you have to go through panic attacks! I’ve only ever had one panic attack in my life, and it was a horrible alcohol-induced attack that I wouldn’t wish to go through again. But if I ever do, i’ll be sure to remember this post!

    Lauren | Lauren the Daydreamer

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  6. I think a lot of people reading this won’t feel so alone anymore. Without going into it, I know that having this kind of support from someone who knows how you feel would make a big difference to a lot of people who didn’t have it when they were going through it. I really love this post Emma, well done.

    Holly x
    http://www.hollysbeautybox.co.uk

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